Thursday, July 25, 2013
::. A-B-Seas Multi-Vendor Giveaway ~ Jamie Winter .::
1 OZ Organic Rose Petals (from Mountain Rose Herbs) & the recipe for Rose Petal Sugar Cookies
Thursday, July 18, 2013
My Angels Left Footprints On My Heart ... by Jennifer Ripel (Posted with Permission)
Jennifer Ripel lost her twin babies in her first trimester of pregnancy 7 years ago this October and is still struggling with the pain & loss. She hopes by sharing her story, she can gain some healing, support & maybe help someone else who is struggling with the same thing. It can be hard when you lose a child or children and people around you become pregnant. You may go back and forth between feeling happy for them, yet resentful that it didn't happen for you. Here is Jennifer's story.
“Do you feel special?” the nurse asked me
as I sat in her office. “Do you feel
special that you are pregnant with twins?
It’s not special. One in 9
pregnancies results in twins”. I didn’t
know what to think. I just found out
that I was carrying two beautiful little lives inside of me, and yes, I did
feel special. I felt darn special. What she said I now know to be false. Around
one in thirty pregnancies will result in twins, not nine. No matter the information, it wasn’t a wanted
conversation and I was shocked to hear it.
I had a daughter; she was just eight months
old when I found out about the second pregnancy. She was the apple of my eye and my colorful
rainbow in the sky. Her smile can light
up a room even if the power was to go out.
It was her sweet chubby cheeks that helped me get through the horrific
morning sickness that I endured. I was
never sick with my first, aside from the one time I was craving a plum and the
only one left was rotten. I ate it
anyways. Every day I prayed to the porcelain
toilet to make it stop. Every day I
wondered if I was going to be able to wake up and get dressed and go out of the
house. Each and every day I felt
horrible. It all made sense once I found
out that I was carrying multiples as I had always heard morning sickness comes
on strong when you are.
I was so excited to be having twins. In my heart, I think I always knew I would. I imagined it from the time I was a little girl playing the game of Life, always eagerly waiting to have twin girls. I just knew. I was also so scared. My Jasmine was only a baby still. A small baby that needed her Mommy and my heart broke thinking about the position I would be putting her in. I am a third child, followed by a fourth. I know what it is like to be left out and I swore that would never happen to my children. I knew everything would fall into place though. I believed it would. I thought it would.
The pain was so bad. In my abdomen, my thighs, and in my heart. There is no pain worse than that of a broken heart. I knew what was happening inside of me. I didn’t want it to happen and I prayed from the first shock of pain that it wouldn’t happen, but it did. Late at night on October 4th I made my way to the bathroom after being woke in bed by my conscious telling me to go. There I birthed two tiny little people. I cried, and I cried, and I cried. I wasn’t through my first trimester as of yet, but I felt a strong connection to them. They were a part of my heart, me and my husband, a part of my family and life. I crawled back into my bed trying not to wake my husband. I think I was in a state of shock. Little did I know that life would never be the same for me.
I see commercials on the TV. I think this day and age it’s all about multiples. So many refer to having twins. Thank goodness for PVR and being able to fast forward right through them. My husband’s cousin and now my cousin are both pregnant with twins. Luckily, I can hide posts or profiles on Facebook. I know I can’t live this way, and I know I need to move on as my sister told me not long ago. I just don’t know how to move on. I don’t know how to pretend that this didn’t happen. I don’t know how to just forget about the babies that I lost, that I birthed, that I loved.
I now have another beautiful daughter. She was somehow conceived just weeks after I lost my beautiful babies, through protection and all. She was an easy pregnancy, much different than the previous. After the horrific pain and guilt I had from my loss just weeks before, I didn’t want more children. I didn’t want to chance going through something like that again. I knew I couldn’t do it. Not mentally, emotionally or spiritually. I had a daughter to be strong for. A beautiful little girl that looked up to me and I wanted to be there for her in every way possible.
We named our unborn baby Sarryn, short for serendipity or un-planned fortune. No, she wasn’t planned and that is okay. She was still made from love and she really is my little fortune! She was due at the very end of October, and at the end of a very healthy, wonderful pregnancy I suddenly went into pre-term labor at the end of 34 weeks. It came on nice and slow, but after a trip to the hospital, then an ambulance ride to the nearby bigger city, I delivered a beautiful baby girl. Sarryn Georgia Rose, 5 lbs 11 oz. Rosy pink, healthy as could be and oh so cute! She was born on October 4th. The day in which just one year before, I had lost my beautiful babies. A day of loss was now a day of celebration.
I still can’t watch TV shows with multiples. I still fast forward the commercials that have them in it. I still cry for days when I find out that my friend or relative is expecting twins. But as the years go on it does get easier and I don’t cry nearly as much. As fate would have it, a few years ago I met someone who is now my best friend. She has two girls. Twins. Some days it is hard, but most days I am just happy for her that she gets to experience what I never had the chance to experience. It is helping me to heal. I also have my two beautiful girls in my life that I couldn’t be more thankful for. They are both the apples of my eyes and my colorful rainbows in the sky. I love them to pieces.
Losing my babies put in a hole in my heart I have yet to learn how to fix. I have seen multiple counselors, I have had candle light prayers (and I’m not one to pray often), and I have even considered getting little footprint tattoos on my shoulder so that in a sense they could always be with me. Even if the ink were to be on my skin, it would not heal me.
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
.:: TOTS New Year, New Year, New Business ::.
New Year, New You, New Business Giveaway February 4-11 2013
Look More Professional, Get More Organized, and Increase Your Web Presence.
- Petunia Pickle Bottom Cross Town Clutch in Brilliant Brussels ($90 retail value)
- Clarity Marketing and Design Custom Logo Design ($300 value)
- Advertorial and Featured Listing on Thinking Outside The Sandbox's Business Directory ($80 retail value)
- Vonny Market Tote in your choice of print ($76 retail value)
- Design Service Gift Voucher from Kitty and Buck ($50 retail value)
- GreenGeeks Hosting Coupon ($30 retail value)
- Advertising credit with Reachli ($40)
- $50 Paypal Cash
The Petunia Pickle Bottom Cross Town Clutch was donated by Bundles and Buzz. This clutch is a perfect addition to any mommy lifestyle. Not only does it have enough room to carry everything you need for a night out, but it is also the perfect professional accessory to bring to those business meetings and while networking. Bundles and Buzz bundles are surprise packages of mom/baby products, supplied by companies, who are looking to increase their sales, introduce a new product, clear out discontinued products or boost brand awareness. You can purchase Mama, Toddler, Baby, Family and Cloth (diapering) themed Bundles.
The Vonny Market Tote was donated by Copy-Kids. Copy-Kids makes video content encouraging positive habits in young children by encouraging them to copy other kids. Our debut release is a DVD entitled Copy-Kids Eat Fruits and Vegetables. In it you find children joyfully eating fruits and vegetables. Kids watching it want to join in. It’s that simple. And it’s effective. The Vonny Market Tote is perfect for any busy mom but particularly one who also runs a business. Cai from Copy-Kids sent me this message; "These bags are so full of pockets -- absolutely amazing. We use ours for knitting... but can definitely be used to get organized."
Copy-Kids is also on Facebook.
Sunday, January 27, 2013
365 Days of Thankful ~ Day #24 - Day #27
Day #24 ~ Thursday, January 24, 2013
Today I am thankful for the ability to implement fun, new ideas ...
Today I am thankful for the ability to implement fun, new ideas ...
Day #25 ~ Friday, January 25, 2013
Today I am thankful for a safe, warm home. Saying prayers for those out in the cold that they find a safe, warm place in which to take shelter.
Today I am thankful for a safe, warm home. Saying prayers for those out in the cold that they find a safe, warm place in which to take shelter.
Day #26 ~ Saturday, January 26, 2013
Today I am thankful for my sight ~ I was able to watch my sweet babies dance to the music that played after Hotel Transylvania went off. :) It was adorable !!
Today I am thankful for my sight ~ I was able to watch my sweet babies dance to the music that played after Hotel Transylvania went off. :) It was adorable !!
Day #27 ~ Sunday, January 27, 2013
Today I am thankful for Bojangle's BoBerry Biscuits ... YUMMY !!
Today I am thankful for Bojangle's BoBerry Biscuits ... YUMMY !!
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