I haven't written in quite some time, and I have a MILLION other things I need to be doing right now ... filling orders, laundry, MT coursework ... And as my head is STILL pounding over a week after my migraine began, I can STILL find joy in the little things ....
As a stay-at-home mom, I am blessed as well as cursed. It is a complete joy & blessing to be able to stay home with my children & watch them grow & be there for them ... But it can also be frustrating, annoying & sometimes even depressing ... Today, however, the joy of it completely overwhelmed me ...
I love to hear the giggles down the hall as Maddi & Dylan play games ... I listen to the words they say & laugh to myself sometimes at the things their sweet little minds imagine ... After I put the kids to bed tonight, Dylan came toddling down the hall about 30 minutes later & cried, "Hold me, Mamma!" My first instinct was to tell him to go back to bed, but instead, I picked him up & in literally seconds he was asleep. I held him for about another 30 minutes & just pondered how blessed I am. I have BEAUTIFUL, HEALTHY, HAPPY children. Dylan told me probably 10 times today that he, "loved me this much in the world." I can't even tell you how it melts my heart to hear that. I could be absolutely livid & if that kid came up to me & said that, the anger would just fade away ...
Maddi starts Kindergarten in August ( I absolutely CANNOT believe this !!) & she is SO stinkin' smart !! She's ready to go. She asked me if she was going to Kindergarten in five days yesterday. LOL I said, "NO !! It's months & months away !!" More to appease myself than to answer her question. She will be fine. I will be a blubbering mess .....
And my oldest is going to COLLEGE this fall ... I am getting old ... My babies are growing up way too fast, and it seems like just yesterday that Brandon was Dylan's age. I mix their names up all the time (a Young trait). When all 5 of my children are in the same house, it is total chaos. But I LOVE it !! Nothing makes me happier than to have all of my family in the same place, at the same time. The times that that happens are few & far between.
But I just needed to take a minute, a break, whatever you want to call it and tell my children how much they mean to me. Time just goes so fast & before you know it, it's over. No matter how old they get, no matter how far away from me they go, I will always see them as my babies !! I love you, Brandon, Nicole, Shaelyn, Madalyn & Dylan & you will ALWAYS be my babies, no matter how old you get !!!!!
